Tuesday, July 1, 2008

8 YEARS AGO

It was 8 YEARS, 96 MONTHS, 384 WEEKS, 2920 DAYS, 70080 HOURS, 4204800 MINUTES, 252 288 000 SECONDS Since I was diagnosed with cancer. My life was never the same after that diagnosis, everything changed....

I had grand ideas. I promised myself that if I survived that I would change my life. That I would be a better human being, make a difference in world. Needless to say, I survived. The perfection that I strived for I soon realized was doomed, that in order to fulfill it I would have to please everyone, and that is impossible. I tried repeatedly and I nearly lost myself in the process believing that I was some miracle being that survived cancer and that I had to live this "new" life as if everyday would be my last. That the path that I would now go on would be watched by everyone, a model of behavior that would be followed.

I was wrong....what I failed to realize is that I had to be happy with myself...ME, the person that housed my soul and whose body had gone through so much. It has not been easy. I have made many mistakes and I know I will make many more for I am only human, not a goddess, a diety, prophet or queen. I am a lucky someone who recognized that every day is a gift and that in order to make changes in the world around me I had to make the change within myself. Become that better person I always knew I could be. It is not something that we can achieve overnight, but a journey of a lifetime that I am blessed to be given a second chance at. So, today....I give a shout out to all of those that have been constant companions to those that have made and impression on me and no longer are in my life.

I LOVE YOU
AND
THANK YOU

10 comments:

Christine said...

I LOVE YOU, TOO!

...I'm trying to think of something very profound to say, but all I can think about is that I'm glad you're my friend! Life is full of experiences that make us who we are--our whole package... the black, the white and all the shades of gray. It's all a gift! xoxoxo

dd03 said...

Loves ya too!
*squishes ya soundly*

I'm so glad you're here and I got to "meet" you!

Now, about August...I'll be in LA for Sherrilyn Kenyon on the 8th!!!

Let me know what day you'll be in LA...I have to put in a time off request soon or I may not have the day off. *squees*

*prances about* Can't wait!

DarlingDiva said...

OMG!!! I will be there on the 8th for Stephenie Meyer...LOL. When is the thingy for SK???

DarlingDiva said...

OMG...i made a mistake. I will be in LA on the 7th thru the 9th...The SM event is on the 7th. If your interested I have an extra ticket. Then I will be around for the 8th...I sooo want to go and see SK. What do I have to do. Where is it?? Let me know...we can meet up...totally.

Christine said...

I just signed into YIM for the first time in ages... was hoping to catch you. Where is you?

dd03 said...

Woohhoo!

I'll have to put in for a day off on the 7th too!!!

OMG! *squeeing*

Ok...so want to do the SM thing. SK event is Friday at 8pm at Dark Delicacies. Here's the bookstore's site:
http://www.darkdel.com/

When I went last year, I purchased an SK book to get a numbered ticket for line placement. I you do not purchase there, then you have to wait until all those that did have had their signing first. It was so very fun...and worth the several freeway interchanges I had to take to get there! lol

DarlingDiva said...

Christine,
I am gabbing away with dd right now. We are making plans to meet up in August. I am soo excited!! I dont get home from work until 6:30pm so I cannot get into YIM until then. We can set a date and chat. Let me know..K

Miss ya
Nancy

~Linda~ said...

I am so grateful that you came into my life, By a twist of fate.
You are truly my Sistah from another Mistah.
You have enriched my life.
And I hope you will be be a part of my life forever.

Smooches!!

DarlingDiva said...

I am not going anywhere chica. I plan on sticking around. I love all my friends, ya'll are the ones that have enriched my life.

Terri said...

Well said girlfriend !

XOXOXOXOXO