Tuesday, July 1, 2008


It was 8 YEARS, 96 MONTHS, 384 WEEKS, 2920 DAYS, 70080 HOURS, 4204800 MINUTES, 252 288 000 SECONDS Since I was diagnosed with cancer. My life was never the same after that diagnosis, everything changed....

I had grand ideas. I promised myself that if I survived that I would change my life. That I would be a better human being, make a difference in world. Needless to say, I survived. The perfection that I strived for I soon realized was doomed, that in order to fulfill it I would have to please everyone, and that is impossible. I tried repeatedly and I nearly lost myself in the process believing that I was some miracle being that survived cancer and that I had to live this "new" life as if everyday would be my last. That the path that I would now go on would be watched by everyone, a model of behavior that would be followed.

I was wrong....what I failed to realize is that I had to be happy with myself...ME, the person that housed my soul and whose body had gone through so much. It has not been easy. I have made many mistakes and I know I will make many more for I am only human, not a goddess, a diety, prophet or queen. I am a lucky someone who recognized that every day is a gift and that in order to make changes in the world around me I had to make the change within myself. Become that better person I always knew I could be. It is not something that we can achieve overnight, but a journey of a lifetime that I am blessed to be given a second chance at. So, today....I give a shout out to all of those that have been constant companions to those that have made and impression on me and no longer are in my life.



Christine said...


...I'm trying to think of something very profound to say, but all I can think about is that I'm glad you're my friend! Life is full of experiences that make us who we are--our whole package... the black, the white and all the shades of gray. It's all a gift! xoxoxo

dd03 said...

Loves ya too!
*squishes ya soundly*

I'm so glad you're here and I got to "meet" you!

Now, about August...I'll be in LA for Sherrilyn Kenyon on the 8th!!!

Let me know what day you'll be in LA...I have to put in a time off request soon or I may not have the day off. *squees*

*prances about* Can't wait!

DarlingDiva said...

OMG!!! I will be there on the 8th for Stephenie Meyer...LOL. When is the thingy for SK???

DarlingDiva said...

OMG...i made a mistake. I will be in LA on the 7th thru the 9th...The SM event is on the 7th. If your interested I have an extra ticket. Then I will be around for the 8th...I sooo want to go and see SK. What do I have to do. Where is it?? Let me know...we can meet up...totally.

Christine said...

I just signed into YIM for the first time in ages... was hoping to catch you. Where is you?

dd03 said...


I'll have to put in for a day off on the 7th too!!!

OMG! *squeeing*

Ok...so want to do the SM thing. SK event is Friday at 8pm at Dark Delicacies. Here's the bookstore's site:

When I went last year, I purchased an SK book to get a numbered ticket for line placement. I you do not purchase there, then you have to wait until all those that did have had their signing first. It was so very fun...and worth the several freeway interchanges I had to take to get there! lol

DarlingDiva said...

I am gabbing away with dd right now. We are making plans to meet up in August. I am soo excited!! I dont get home from work until 6:30pm so I cannot get into YIM until then. We can set a date and chat. Let me know..K

Miss ya

~Linda~ said...

I am so grateful that you came into my life, By a twist of fate.
You are truly my Sistah from another Mistah.
You have enriched my life.
And I hope you will be be a part of my life forever.


DarlingDiva said...

I am not going anywhere chica. I plan on sticking around. I love all my friends, ya'll are the ones that have enriched my life.

Terri said...

Well said girlfriend !